Venus discordant to Saturn
(power = 5.69 and this aspect is discordant = -7.12)
You are likely to be emotionally underdeveloped. Opening up to others is not easy for you due to your being unable to move past previous hurts, always fearful that the same will happen once more. You keep both your money and your feelings to yourself. Innately, you know that nothing comes for free and you would rather not pay the price unless it is truly worth having. Rather than expressing your emotions to another, you will tend to purchase tokens of affection, as it seems to be easier for you to handle them rejecting your present than for them to reject you emotionally. You deeply desire to be loved but you are unable to be intimately close to another. Inside, you are insecure and do not believe you are worthy of being loved. It is only when you transform this way of thinking that your life will turn around for the better. You deserve as much love as anyone does, though this needs to come to you on your own. Try to let go of what happened in the past and move forward with your life.
Your demeanour is usually stern and sombre and others may think you generally do not care about much. These observations are untrue as it is more so that you are being careful about who you reveal yourself to. You desire warmth and affection though it is very challenging for you. In order for you to receive affection, you will need to show it first. You cannot purchase other peoples feelings. Letting loose and having a good time without reservation is hard for you. Working diligently towards a practical result is something you can more readily comprehend, but emotions? They confuse you. It is uncommon that you engage in fun just for the sake of fun. Work tends to be fun for you which is baffling to others. Oddly enough, there is the occasional moment where you will distract yourself with something and leave the work to build up. You must find equilibrium between the serious side of life and enjoying yourself.
You may seek out romantic partners that do not treat you the way they should. If you find a way to appreciate the person you are, others will also. Safety and stability are valuable to you though you are unsure how to acquire them. You often worry about losing monetary assets or the people you care for. These feelings may become a self-fulfilling prophecy. Allow yourself to open up to others and forget past hurt. Look your problems right in the eye and deal with them; it is the one path to conquering them.
When faced with much difficulty you can become very pessimistic and down on your luck. Acting responsibly is important though life has put these challenges in place for you to grow in strength and wisdom. You are more likely than others to comprehend that there is more to life than being happy. However, this does not require that you must live in misery. Your loneliness stems from your unwillingness to accept that people do truly care for you. Again, it is likely your own insecurities colouring reality for you. If you want to draw love towards you, then you must first act in a caring fashion.
You are guarded about sharing your interests with others because you are fearful that they will reject you. In your relationships you may be mildly envious or try to possess your partner, as you tend to be so afraid of losing what is yours that you cling to it. However, this tendency only works to distance your partner from you as they feel trapped, creating the exact thing that you were worried about. No amount of force can keep someone that does not wish to be kept. Feelings of love should be allowed to be expressed freely, without control being placed on them. Try to keep in mind that the challenges you are facing in life are only there to aid in your growth.